Last Wednesday’s word couldn’t have come at a better time. On the drive to service last night, my mind was going back and forth about whether or not God can come through for Alex’s and I’s current need. Something inside me kept saying to believe and to trust in Him. I was down to my last $46 that was supposed to last me for the rest of the week and I had planned on only giving a small portion of it as my tithe—a girl’s gotta eat, you know. ;) But as we approached the church last night, I told myself, surely, if I plant this seed and God can see that I’m really putting it out there that I really need his favor, there’s no way he wouldn’t come through for me.
When we got to church and started to worship, I felt a sense of peace in me—almost like God came down and put his arms around me. Then word from the Pastor came through and—man, did it ever come through. It’s like God was really talking to Alex and I through the Pastor. Everyone in church prayed over each others need and I’ve been constantly praying for favor in our situation. By putting out all that faith and prayer, I felt just as the Pastor described in his story about a hopeless work situation. Pastor stared at the picture of Jesus and his apostles in the boat and prayed and worshiped and the morning after, it was like all the anxiety went away and he was at peace. I put out prayer and faith in God and left everything in His hands. I felt good leaving church last night and this morning I felt the anxiety slowly drift away and sure enough God pulled through for me. God is good all the time. All the time, God is good.
Didn’t realize how many Americans suffer from the “Ostrich Effect”. #wakeup #knowledgeispower #occupywallstreet #revolution #evolution (Taken with instagram)
Change starts from within.
“You must be the change you want to see in the world.”
“As human beings, our greatness lies not so much in being able to remake the world – that is the myth of the atomic age – as in being able to remake ourselves.”
“Nobody can hurt me without my permission.”
“The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.”
“An eye for eye only ends up making the whole world blind.”
“An ounce of practice is worth more than tons of preaching.”
5. The present moment.
“I do not want to foresee the future. I am concerned with taking care of the present. God has given me no control over the moment following.”
6. Everyone is human.
“I claim to be a simple individual liable to err like any other fellow mortal. I own, however, that I have humility enough to confess my errors and to retrace my steps.”
“It is unwise to be too sure of one’s own wisdom. It is healthy to be reminded that the strongest might weaken and the wisest might err.”
“First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win.”
“I look only to the good qualities of men. Not being faultless myself, I won’t presume to probe into the faults of others.”
“I suppose leadership at one time meant muscles; but today it means getting along with people.”
“Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.”
“Always aim at complete harmony of thought and word and deed. Always aim at purifying your thoughts and everything will be well.”
“Constant development is the law of life, and a man who always tries to maintain his dogmas in order to appear consistent drives himself into a false position.”
I came across this photo while helping my little sister move into her first apartment. I actually skimmed through her entire photo album and it was kind of bittersweet. The past few days were incredibly emotional for me as my first born officially started her first day of class. And later that afternoon, I found myself sitting in my first baby sisters apartment.
I couldn’t help but look at Holly in awe—she has so much life ahead of her and this is a new chapter in her life. Nothing beats the feeling of being able to really be on your own—to wake up in your own spot on your own terms. It was pretty surreal.
In a lot of ways, I see Holly as one of my own, so it’s a little tough for me to know that she’s not down the street anymore. Her and I are two sides of the same coin—she knows me better than anyone, including myself. I can’t help but feel like a piece of me is with her across the bay. I know she’s not that far, but it’s not the same.
Eventually I’ll get over this feeling, I guess.
Anyway, there’s so many different emotions going through my head and heart right now. I’m definitely struggling to put it in words. I guess for the time being, this picture will have to suffice. I don’t know why I chose this picture over the others, but oddly enough, it brings me comfort.
Hoping that this opens a few eyes. If so, let go and let GOD. My church is holding a friend day on September 4, 2011. Please contact me if you’re interested. We’re not about religion, but about a relationship with God.
Psalm 23 - The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.
Another one of those moments where you go, “Gee…why didn’t I think of that?!” Most of the time it’s the most simplest things in life that go over our heads. We as human beings tend to over-process and over-examine things rather than just take things as they are. Ever notice that the most ingenious inventions come from simple ideas? These works of art by kisses from Natalie Irish are pretty amazing if you think about how she would have to get her kisses to be just right so that each kiss doesn’t compromise the integrity of the image itself. Kinda like your first kiss with someone—everything has to be calculated perfectly—because we all know, nothing beats the perfect first kiss. It’s a lasting impression; it’s the do or die. And Natalie Irish has to do that a thousand times over.
This song hits close to home—especially in the last few days.
I find myself thinking of irrelevant days; days that are long gone and filled with the innocence of young love—of a time when being naive was nothing more than a legitimate excuse for your actions—where as now, being naive is no longer an excuse. At this age, I’m much older and wiser and I can’t blame my thoughts or actions on the days of innocence.
Nonetheless, this song is on repeat. Though I’m in a happy place right now, I can’t help but think of you.